Thanksgiving Day and Black Friday are extreme notions, aren’t they? One day we are thankful for our many blessings and the next day we are expressing our greed in the exploitation of the coming holiday season. The questions in the shopper’s mind are often, “What does he need?” or “What does she want?”
And I began to think, “What is important?”
A couple of months ago I began a de-cluttering of the house to transform the family household into a minimalist lifestyle. In the process I either misplaced, donated or inadvertently threw out all my journals, prayer journals and poetry journals. Years of writing. Gone. It has taken me these past months to reconcile that I may never see my journals again. I am not sure I fully have reconciled to the thought of that I may never find them. It has been like a punch in the gut as though I have lost a loved one.
How important are my journals?
Perhaps not as important as to someone who has suddenly without expectation lost a loved one as a dear friend whose sister passed away this past week from a freak accident. Or not as important as a person’s health who like another dear friend lost most of her internal organs after a recent surgery only to discover it was indeed ovarian cancer instead of something benign.
While those journals were personally important to me for various reasons, did I need them? I thought I did, and being truthful, I still do want them. Badly.
I find myself feeling ridiculous when my friends have lost something more precious – a loved one, their health, and other friends who have lost their livelihood. And yet, I am still stressing over my need for these journals that were a tangible, but an indispensable part of my life. Those journals told my life story of my struggles, my desires, my dreams and my sins.
How important is Jesus Christ?
“You received Christ Jesus the Lord, so continue to live as Christ’s people. Sink your roots into him and build on him. Be strengthened by the faith that you were taught and overflow with thanksgiving.” Colossians 2:6-7
When I look at what I have lost in my life, I cannot ignore what I have gained in its place. I have learned from my prayer journals that what is most important is my communication and relationship with Christ. I may have lost my physical journals; but I still have something even more tangible and indispensable in my life – Jesus Christ.
Whatever I am searching for in life, may they be wants or needs, God is still transforming me for His purpose. Whether I try to distinguish wants from needs or vice versa, both are opportunities for God to transform my life as one of His own. In order, for me to become everything He has created me to be I must learn to believe in and on His trustworthiness.
Whatever is lost and whatever is gained must always be in faith through Christ who strengthens me.
From today’s prayer journal
Dear Lord of my life, I know that my life is not my own. By Your death and resurrection, You made me Your own. Help me to live under Your direction, always ready to see, not what was lost, but always aware of Your presence to see what is gained. May others see this transformation in me, so they may receive Your love and mercy through me.
It is not easy for me to ask for these things Lord of what I must give up so I no longer pretend that my life is not my own. My prayer is to surrender everything to Your care and direction. I want to follow You and accept whatever the outcome, but I confess it is difficult at times. When I fail. When I fall time and time again, show me again that there is love, forgiveness and mercy. Use me in spite of my reluctance to let go of what I want and what I believe I need to follow You.
I love You. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen
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