Several months ago, a dear friend asked me, “I wish I had your faith.”
Softly and without any intentional judgement, I answered, “You do. You have chosen to put your faith elsewhere.”
The exchanged reminded me of a similar question many years ago when I moved to another state to open a branch office for my employer. The woman whom I had hired to be my assistant was a few years older, so I was a bit taken back by her question.
Gwen asked, “where does your confidence come from in making your decisions?”
I do not remember my answer to Gwen. I know it wasn’t how I would have answered that question today. My spirit today is not restless as it was for much of my life. In fact, God has used a persistent restlessness to draw me closer to Him. Each time He was trying to get my attention, I chose to put my faith elsewhere until a major crisis in my career ten years ago. The United States economic crisis beginning around the time of 2008 caused my employer to close their sales operations in the summer of 2009. I was crushed. I had put my identity into my career. Yet, God was getting my attention and I was finally ready to listen.
Whether it is a job loss, loss of loved one, a divorce, a health scare or a life-changing diagnosis, God gains our attention when we have put our faith elsewhere. He is not the one that causes our crisis, but during our crisis, God is speaking to us. Unfortunately, we either choose not to listen or we simply don’t know Him to hear the call. We job hop, we move from one relationship to another, we fall into addiction or into a deep well of depression, or a combination of all these behaviors.
Although I have been a Christian most of my life, I did not recognize God’s voice until a major crisis caused me to drop to my knees in prayer. I did all those things that on the outside looked like I was a Christian – sitting in the pew every Sunday, church committee meetings, providing a Christian education for my children. My restlessness of the summer of 2009 drove me to not just know “of” God, but to really get to “know” God through faith in Jesus Christ.
“Jesus looked at them and said, “It is impossible for people to save themselves, but everything is possible for God.” Matthew 19:26 GW
If I had a true faith back then that I have today, my answer to Gwen would be, “My confidence is not mine. It is the confidence of Jesus Christ who strengthens me every day and in every way.”
That’s not saying that I will not continue to be restless in my life. When I do become restless, I know God is trying to talk to me. I will take His call every single time.
“Come close to God, and he will come close to you. Clean up your lives, you sinners, and clear your minds, you doubters.” James 4:8 GW
Lord God, I give all the glory and praise your name. Give me the grace and wisdom to understand that in Your gentleness there is power, in Your kindness their is valor, in Your forgiveness there is life. Help me to listen when I become restless. Help me not to rely on my own power or any other purpose than Your purpose. Help me to understand that wisdom is born and grows to maturity through faith in Christ. Grant me confidence in Your mercy and hope in Your promises. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen
Getting to know God
I have written a journal since I was a young girl. In the last ten years I have kept a prayer journal to draw closer to God. If you are facing restlessness in your life, I encourage you to begin a prayer journal today to draw closer so you can know Him too. When you draw close to God, He will draw close to you. Is He trying to get your attention today? Answer the call. I know you will be glad you did.
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