What if God had not gotten my attention with the meltdown of 2009 and ended my career in the summer of 2009?
What if God had not pleasantly surprised with the unforeseen expectation of marriage so soon after publishing my personal ad in the local newspaper in January 1992?
What if I didn’t recognize all the people who unexpectedly came to my rescue, influenced and encouraged me throughout my life as one of God’s angels?
Would I have recognized God?
Would I have recognized He had answered my prayer or when?
When the answer to prayer is “no.”
Has God answered all my prayers?
What happened when God didn’t answer my prayer? Or did He?
In 2006, my husband and I listed our house for sale. We wanted to move to a bigger house, preferably further out in the country and closer to my mother and her husband. Since my father had died prior to my marriage and having a family, my mother’s husband was my son’s grandfather. We all loved him. At the time, he was battling multiple myeloma, bone cancer; and we wanted to be near them in case they needed us.
We spent many weekends searching for a new home with little action on our current one. We were losing heart that we would be able to move. Finally, after many months, we took our home off the market and resigned ourselves to remaining in our current home. Sadly, in June 2007, our sons’ papa passed away.
It would be two years later that our financial house came crashing down when I lost my job that summer of 2009. Looking back, my husband and I were relieved that we had not moved because we surely would have lost that home possibly due to foreclosure. We found ourselves barely able to hold on to what we had as it was since our current home had lost all its’ value and was “underwater” in terms of our mortgage.
“When you get what you want, that is God’s direction. When you don’t get what you want, that is God’s protection.” (Unknown)
The answer to my prayer was a resounding, “no” from God. God knows our past, present and future. While we went through financial pains after I lost my job, it would have been much worse if we had sold our house and moved to another one. Now when my prayers are not answered, I know either God is delaying because He has something better in mind for me, or He is protecting me from something.
“I know the plans that I have for you, declares the LORD. They are plans for peace and not disaster, plans to give you a future filled with hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
Dear Lord, You can create out of nothing. I confess I am often blinded with doubt and my heart falls into despair grieving that you have not answered my prayer. You have shown me time and time again that you provide and protect far beyond what I can even contemplate at the time of my prayer. Forgive me Lord for doubting and not trusting You. Thank you for knowing me. Thank you for working on my behalf. Thank you for loving me that I may know Your presence and the joy of salvation through faith in You. I pray this in Jesus’ name. Amen
Getting to know God
I have written a journal since I was a young girl. In the last ten years I have kept a prayer journal to draw closer to God. Are you waiting for answers? Draw closer to God. I encourage you to begin a prayer journal today so you can know Him too. When you draw close to God, He will draw close to you. Is He trying to get your attention today? Why not draw closer to Him?
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