This is the second post in a series titled, Today’s Reality. The series will chronicle my journey to remission from Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (CML). My outlook as I begin this new phase in my life and blog series is living in the moment in mind, body, and spirit. I am not angry. I refuse to be sad. I am determined to live a long life with love and peace in my heart with the confidence of a better tomorrow filled with joy and humor.
Even now after almost four months of my leukemia diagnosis, I feel periods of hopelessness with the physical and mental exhaustion a fatigue that ruthlessly strips my bones and muscles of all energy. All of this after one of the best summers of my life leading me into an autumn of darkness and confusion. Yet when God gives me this vision of happiness and then darkness follows, I know I must wait.
You watered the land with plenty of rain, O God.
You refreshed it when your land was exhausted. Psalm 68:9 (GW)
I do not need to pretend my life is filled with joy and confidence of the discipline of waiting for God’s perfect timing in my new reality. I just need to recall all the times before this valley when I was grounded in His perfect timing to when I am elevated from this place of hurt. God is here!
When I face loss, disappointment or a difficult circumstance, God invites me to be honest with Him. He can handle my everchanging emotions and numerous questions. I draw closer to Him. God remains with me refreshing my spirit with enduring hope even in my darkest moments to which He makes my faith unbreakable.
Thanks be to the Lord,
who daily carries our burdens for us.
God is our salvation. Psalm 68:19 (GW)
As I draw closer to God, He is the God I know him to be. Persevere in prayer.
Dear Lord, I praise Your name and give You all the glory. I pray Lord to not only heal my body but heal my mind from the deepening darkness that pervades my spirit. Elevate me from this place of hurt in mind and body and set free my spirt in Your refreshing waters all in Your perfect timing. In Jesus Christ’s name I pray. Amen
My New Cancer Journey
This series, Today’s Reality will also offer a personal reflection on my website, The Blogging Owl, as well as a literary perspective on my website, The Owl Poet. I hope you will also follow me on my other blogs too!
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God’s Blessings to You,
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