God created me because He wants a relationship with me. He loves me. He wants me to know him personally and intimately, not just know about him. I know this through His Word, the Bible, and through His only Son, Jesus Christ.
This is what I have been taught.
God reveals that He wants me to enjoy a life that is in line with his purpose and destiny for me. He wants to be a nurturing and powerful presence in my life, not just an idea in my head.
I want to know God as a reality and not just a concept simply to be believed or disbelieved.
Getting to Know God
In the last years of high school and until I was about 21 years old, I attended a Baptist church because my high school sweetheart’s family was deeply entrenched in the Baptist church. The Baptist church, Christian beliefs and ways of worship were very much different than the Missouri Lutheran Church in which I was raised. However, it was truly eye-opening in how this Baptist congregation was the friendliest bunch of people and the most outspoken in their faith. It was this brief church experience that really impressed upon me that a personal and intimate relationship with Jesus was possible.
Yet, I fell away from the church altogether.
Becoming independent from my parents, my hometown, and eventually moving away to another state for my job was the beginning of my wandering years away from the church. I say the church because I still believed in God. I had not become independent of my faith. I had become independent of my relationship with Christ.
A few years later, I moved back to my home state and eventually I made it back into the pew of a Missouri Lutheran Church where thankfully, a pastor and a few parishioners made me feel welcome. Although single, I slowly became involved in the church.
After the sudden passing of my father, I moved closer to my mother and a new church. It was a huge Missouri Lutheran Church in a college town. And it wasn’t until in my early thirties, still single that I began to contemplate God’s purpose and destiny for me.
Did I really know God?
Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” John 14:6 NIV
I have traveled a great distance toward getting to know God. But it is because, according to the Bible, it wasn’t until I came to terms with Jesus and the issue of submission that was most important in trusting him. On my spiritual journey that continues today, it wasn’t simply enough to agree with Jesus’ claims intellectually, but to accept him into my life and trust His path to salvation.
I am not righteous.
“Now we know that whatever the law says, it says to those who are under the law, so that every mouth may be silenced and the whole world held accountable to God. Therefore no one will be declared righteous in God’s sight by the works of the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of our sin.” Romans 3:19-20 NIV
Can He change me?
Jesus continues to change history – one person at a time.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 NIV
“For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23 NIV
I know that God forgives and accepts anyone who believes in Christ. I want to feel that forgiveness and acceptance. But, how?
“If you declare with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” Romans 10:9-10 NIV
If there is hope in Christ, there is hope for me.
“Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.” John 1:12 NIV
I, who receives Christ is forgiven and accepted by God, am righteous.
Spending time with Jesus – 30 Weeks
In continuing writing about my spiritual memoir, for the next 30 weeks I will be blogging 30 themes of getting to know God sprinkled with personal experiences. I will be following the Holy Spirit’s gentle whisper, “Follow me” to give me direction and understanding. I hope you will continue to join me and keep your own journal of thoughts and feelings as we together ask God to reveal himself in our personal path of faith.
Lord God, you revealed yourself through your only Son, Jesus Christ. Give me the grace and wisdom to know and understand you better. Keep me from relying on my own power or my own purpose. Help me to see that wisdom is born and grows through my personal relationship with Christ. Grant me confidence in Your mercy and hope in Your promises. I pray in Jesus’ name, Amen.
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