Today’s Reality: God is Here!

This is the first post in a series titled, Today’s Reality. The series will chronicle my journey to remission from Chronic Myeloid Leukemia (CML). My outlook as I begin this new phase in my life and blog series is living in the moment in mind, body, and spirit. I am not angry. I refuse to be sad. I am determined to live a long life with love and peace in my heart with the confidence of a better tomorrow filled with joy and humor.

It has been 6 weeks since my diagnosis of leukemia. I have not written in my journal but for a couple of times. I am not sure why except that I know God is here!

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Above, is My Prayer Journal Post the day before my diagnosis on 9.25.2020.

At 3:00 a.m. this morning, God tapped me awake. I had a fitful night even after a long prayer and meditation session prior to retiring for the night. I was led to picking up my phone and logging off my personal social media accounts – my personal Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn account.

“Social media needs you, but you do not need it.”

This was God’s instruction. Cancer may have taken residence deep in my body’s bone marrow, but I must not allow the cancer in this country’s politics to invade my mind, nor can I allow the cancer of this world to steal my peace.

I got up and poured a glass of Vernors ginger ale. Sitting in my chair, I opened Scripture and read the three chapters of Ephesians. Afterward I was able to sleep peacefully.

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Ephesians – Praying the Scripture

As I grown closer to God, the Father of my Lord Jesus Christ, I will get to know Him better.

“Then (I) will have a deeper insight. (I) will know the confidence that he calls (me) to have and the glorious wealth that God’s people will inherit.” Ephesians 1:18 GW

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“God saved (me) through faith as an act of kindness. You had nothing to do with it. Being saved is a gift from God.  It is not the result of anything (I’ve) done, so (I cannot) brag about it.  God has made (me) what (I am). He has created (me) in Christ Jesus to live (a life) filled with good works that he has prepared for (me) to do.” Ephesians 2:8-10 GW

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“(I am) built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets. Christ Jesus himself is the cornerstone. In him all the parts of the building fit together and grow into a holy temple in the Lord. Through him (I am), also, being built in the Spirit together with others into a place where God lives.” Ephesians 2: 20-22 GW

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I pray for inner strength and power through His Spirit.

“Then Christ will live in (me) through faith. I also pray that love may be the ground into which (I) sink your roots, and on which (I) have your foundation. This way, with all of God’s people (I) will be able to understand how wide, long, high, and deep his love is. (I) will know Christ’s love, which goes far beyond any knowledge. I am praying this so that (I) may be filled completely with God. Glory belongs to God whose power is at work in (me). By this power He can do infinitely more than (I) can ask or imagine.” Ephesians 3:17-20 GW

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My faith commitment

I make a lasting commitment to God to profess my faith, pray without ceasing, and draw near to Him.

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My Prayer

God, You have grounded me on a strong reality and truth and in no uncertain terms more so now than ever in these last six weeks. Through the door of my heartbreak with this leukemia diagnosis, You are opening a new way of fellowship with Your Son, Jesus Christ.

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These last six weeks, Lord, You have taught me not to collapse at the first grip of this reality. I am at your doorway ready to walk through in Your purpose. I try earnestly not to enter a slow death of self-pity, nor give in to all the so-called Christian sympathy of others who would want to hasten me to this deathbed.

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God, I know You can accomplish Your purpose in this broken world through a broken heart. I pray that Your call to intimacy with You will have redemptive work in this world and in me through my broken heart without hindrance nor the stumbling block of today’s reality.

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God, I pray that you will not only comfort me but those around me with your healing power. I am not alone in the battle of brokenness in mind, body, and spirit.

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May others around me from family, friends, physicians, and strangers see through this new purpose Your light through their own darkness to your presence.

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God, even in my daily weakness of chemotherapy and the weight of the world around me strengthen my resolve realizing your promises through reading Your Word, communicating not only my request for forgiveness, my needs but my gratitude, and the ability to serve others if it is only in showing them Your presence in my life.

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God lift-up my sorrows to the Cross of Jesus Christ to help me not only see Your promises but to share them with others who are enduring their own pain in mind, body, or spirit.

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I give You all the glory and praise God.

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Forgive me when I falter in today’s reality. Forgive me when I struggle in my pain, my patience, and in my perseverance in maintaining Your perspective.

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You are leading me to victory over today’s reality and may I always hold on to that perspective so that others may see You helping me in my difficulties.

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God, You have taught me that my body is a temple that belongs to the Holy Spirit received by You. I know I do not belong to this world. Help me to take care of this body temple, guide my earthly physicians, and hold up all who care and love me. I not only pray for myself but all who reside in this broken and battered world. In Jesus Christ’s name, I pray. Amen

My New Cancer Journey

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Sheri

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Lent – The Wilderness

“With deep devotion, Francis dwelt in the heavenly mansions in complete-emptying. He remained for long periods hidden spiritually in the wounds of the Crucified Christ. For this reason, he sought solitary places where he could cast his soul entirely upon God.” – Thomas Celano, Italian Friar, Poet and Author

The Lenten season begins Wednesday, March 6, 2019. And like Saint Francis of Assisi, I, too, will be seeking solitary places, fasting and praying ‘hidden spiritually’ in the wounds of my Crucified Christ.

What is God calling me to do?

What fire is calling me to put out? Doubt? Or is he stoking a fire within me?

Jesus: “Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eye is unclouded, your whole body is full of light. But when your eye is evil, your body is full of darkness. 35 So be careful that the light in you isn’t darkness. 36 If your whole body is full of light and not darkness, it will be as bright as a lamp shining on you.” Luke 11:33-36

I will examine the Rev. Martin Luther’s “Two Kinds of Righteousness.” What kind of private Apostle am I? “The Apostle means that each individual Christian shall become the servant of another in accordance with the example of Christ.” ‘Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them. They don’t know what they’re doing.”’ Luke 23:34

Whatever God’s calling me to do

I know that what God may be calling me to do is grounded in Nehemiah’s prayer:

4 When I heard this, I sat down and cried. I mourned for days. I continued to fast and pray to the God of heaven. 5 I said, “LORD God of heaven, great and awe-inspiring God, you faithfully keep your promise [a] and show mercy to those who love you and obey your commandments. 6 Open your eyes and pay close attention with your ears to what I, your servant, am praying. I am praying to you day and night about your servants the Israelites. I confess the sins that we Israelites have committed against you as well as the sins that my father’s family and I have committed. 7 We have done you a great wrong. We haven’t obeyed the commandments, laws, or regulations that you gave us through your servant Moses. 8 Please remember what you told us through your servant Moses: ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations. 9 But if you return to me and continue to obey my commandments, though your people may be driven to the most distant point on the horizon, I will come and get you from there and bring you to the place where I chose to put my name.’ 10 These are your servants and your people whom you have saved by your great power and your strong hand. 11 Lord, please pay attention to my prayer and to the prayers of all your other servants who want to worship your name. Please give me success today and make this man, King Artaxerxes, show me compassion.” Nehemiah 1:4-11

I continue to rebuild the walls of my life. I know God is asking me to bare all as Luther writes, “Therefore they put off the form of their own righteousness and put on the form of those others, praying for their persecutors, blessing those who curse, doing good to evil-doers, prepared to pay the penalty and make satisfaction for their very enemies that they may be saved. (Matthew 5:44). This is the gospel and the example of Christ.”

You do what God as called you to do. You show up. You put one foot in front of the other. No matter how big the call. No matter how small. You have no idea what God is calling you to. But he needs you. He needs me. He needs all of us.” Father Mychal Judge, Franciscan Friar, Catholic Priest, and Chaplain to the New York City Fire Department.

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My Lenten Prayer

Dear Lord, bring clarity to my confusion. Rescue me and bring rhythm to my calling just as you set the sun and the stars to motion in precise rhythm of day into night and night into day. Instill within me the patient endurance to enlighten me of my specific mission and to complete the mission with the wisdom and maturity through an unwavering faith in Christ. Grant me confidence in Your mercy and hope in Your promises. Help me to watch with You in your passion, that I remain awake to the infinite power of Your Love. In Him, give me courage and strength. Amen.

May I ask for your prayers during this Lenten season?

My Spiritual Journey

The Prayer Journal’s blog is my personal spiritual journey in conjunction with writing my spiritual memoir.

Please reach out to The Prayer Journals if I can answer any questions about keeping a prayer journal of your own. A prayer journal is an intimate communication between you and God. You don’t have to be an articulate writer. Use your gifts to communicate with God by perhaps with your talent as an illustrator, a painter, a poet, a lyricist or creator of scrapbooks. God enjoys hearing from you. I know you will be blessed! I know I am!

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Blessings on your day,

Sheri

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