Am I good enough?
If God loves me then I must be good enough, right?
Do I insult God when I think otherwise?
What is He asking me to do?
If my purpose is to serve out His Will with my gifts, then why do I continually question my ability? Has He not already given me the ability?
Do I hurt God when I do otherwise?
I Will Harvest What I Plant
“The person who is taught God’s word should share all good things with his teacher. Make no mistake about this: You can never make a fool out of God. Whatever you plant is what you’ll harvest. If you plant in the soil of your corrupt nature, you will harvest destruction. But if you plant in the soil of your spiritual nature, you will harvest everlasting life. We can’t allow ourselves to get tired of living the right way. Certainly, each of us will receive everlasting life at the proper time, if we don’t give up. Whenever we have the opportunity, we must do what is good for everyone, especially for the family of believers.” Galatians 6:6-10 GW
I have been in the process of writing a spiritual memoir over the last few years. It should be completed, but it isn’t because I keep starting and stopping. The message is not mine, but His message. My story would not be possible without the Holy Spirit leading me out of my place of hurt that is deep and dark to a higher elevation of forgiveness and purpose. Yet here I am again, on my knees, in prayer battling my doubts and fear as a writer.
God is and has been my energy, strength, wisdom and creativity. Whatever the ongoing battle, this overwhelming challenge of desiring it to get it right, or this personal crisis that appears impossible to overcome – God is with me. I allow Him to work on me and through me and as I will continue to trust His plan for this specific purpose and in His perfect timing to bring it to fruition.
“Blessed are those who are persecuted for doing what God approves of. The kingdom of heaven belongs to them. Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you, lie, and say all kinds of evil things about you because of me. Rejoice and be glad because you have a great reward in heaven! The prophets who lived before you were persecuted in these ways.” Matthew 5:10-12 GW
FAITH over fear
Why am I afraid of in telling my story?
How will lives be changed by sharing my testimony?
How can I be sure this project is His prompting and not my own?
The place where I go to find the strength is in my prayer journals. It is a place that reveals my new Christ-like personality. My responsibility is to put on and wear that Christ-like personality each day and every night, cloaking myself in His peace and protection to pursue his purpose for me. I know I will get this story right. My faith has shown me how to step out of my anger, my fear, and all my doubt for page after page in my prayer journals tell the story of my Lord and Savior’s faithfulness in my life.
Psalm 61:1-4 GW
“O God, you are my God.
At dawn I search for you.
My soul thirsts for you.
My body longs for you
in a dry, parched land where there is no water.
So, I look for you in the holy place to see your power and your glory. My lips will praise you because your mercy is better than life itself. So, I will thank you as long as I live. I will lift up my hands to pray in your name.”
Dear Lord, I give you all the praise and glory for plucking me from my place of hurt and setting me on top of a place where I can share Your love and faithfulness through my gift of writing. Lord, you have put a burden on my heart, and I pray You will open a door for me to accomplish Your will. I am like Nehemiah praying in desperation to respond to this burden that seems beyond my abilities. You know everything about me. You know everything about my situation. I am not asking permission, nor refusing Your calling, but in faith, asking for the power to proceed with success of this mission.
Thank you for all my gifts. Thank you for all who pray for me in this effort. Thank you for showing me the way through and around all trials and errors to the path you have set for me to accomplish all through Jesus Christ, and in His name, I pray. Amen
My Spiritual Journey
The Prayer Journal’s blog is my personal spiritual journey in conjunction with writing my spiritual memoir.
Please reach out to The Prayer Journals if I can answer any questions about keeping a prayer journal of your own. A prayer journal is an intimate communication between you and God. You don’t have to be an articulate writer. Use your gifts to communicate with God by perhaps with your talent as an illustrator, a painter, a poet, a lyricist or creator of scrapbooks. God enjoys hearing from you. I know you will be blessed! I know I am!
I enjoy hearing from you too! I’m praying for you.
Blessings on your day,
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